To my effort

Bermula dari keinginan kuat, dengan latar belakang ibadah, berkarir namun tetap dapat menjalankan kewajiban domestik yg menjadi fitrah.

Dirintis dengan perjuangan dan pengorbanan.

Dimulai dengan bismillah, dengan menyebut nama Allah yang maha segalanya.

Maka selayaknyalah ku jalani dengan keyakinan. Tak ada tempat untuk ragu. Tak ada ruang untuk pesimis.

Dan tak ada jalan kembali tuk rasa takut, cemas, gelisah.

Yang ada hanya maju, maju dan maju dengan penuh keyakinan.

Ya Rabb, sungguh hamba makhluk lemah, tiada daya dan upaya melainkan dariMu.

Telah Kau tunjukkan betapa tak pantas berkeluh kesah, betapa banyak nikmat yang harus disyukuri.

Too much pressure,  tak sedikit beban ini, bukan alasan tuk cemas yang berlebihan. InsyaAllah.. insyaAllah…

Aku… tidak akan mati walau seribu orang berkata aku mati.

Aku mati jika aku berpikir aku mati.

Aku… tidak akan jatuh walau berjuta orang bilang aku jatuh.

Aku jatuh ketika aku sendiri meyakini bahwa aku jatuh.

Rabb, just stay with me, and I could stand still through the storm.

SEMANGAT!

another drama

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn’t have wings
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn’t for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we’re lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We’re not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn’t for me and you

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Boy I know we had some good times
It’s sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Boy you know I love you, I can’t deny
I can’t say we didn’t try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it’s best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I’ll walk away so you don’t have to see me cry
It’s killing me so, why don’t you go

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

“senyum kecut mode on”, try 2 confince my self that this song ain’t 4 me,

dont even know what was it, every night the dream still the same, trying to get the answer,

wish that the answer could bring a little comfortable night sleep, but…

haven’t got the answer, so pathetic thought….

 the dream keep coming over n over

and still i ask 2 my self, what was all about?

if “the pair” didn’t felt the same way, then should be easy 2 close the old book, move on, sleep well without the dreaming,

coz its really a not necessary dream, it is so… unrealistic,  just make me wake up and again asking “what the **ll was that all?????

was somethg has left that my heart could not let go? is it all about the answer that i’ve never got (coz i never ask)?

or caused somethg else???  

how then….